People.
As the sun rises and fall everything changes, but why is that people have change so much. Maybe they haven’t even changed but damn did the amount of shitty ones have a baby boom !! I just don’t get it, why is it that “friends” do unethical things. Has the whole world just gone mad ?! It’s a rarity to be genuinely helped, told the truth or to feel safe in strangers presence, and that’s just ludicrous ! I wish I was able to live in a world where people weren’t out for themselves and generosity was fluent throughout society. That’s all.
March 1, 2012 .
Today I found out my grandpa died, I had some idea how I would have felt when I got this news but this feeling was unexpected. Though I barely got to know him , I know inside what a wonderful man he was because of what a great guy my dad is. I pray he has found peace in his passing and that my nana stays strong. I love you so much pop pop , I truly hope you knew that . :/
people .
I live my life with honesty being my biggest principle , but it seems NO ONE can tell the truth anymore . Im tired of hearing things people say behind my back about who I am , if anyone has something to say you should say it to my face . Im not the type of person to snap over criticism , I take a step back , think about what is said and find a way to fix it . so PLEASE stop talk shit about me people . I dont deserve it , because I am respectful towards all of you . If someone were to ask me a question I will give you the honest answer , so give me the same respect ? thanks .
Hakuna Matata .
Hakuna Matata , it means no worries for the rest of your days , right ? But why is it that actually being able to put your past behind you comes so hard ? Who I once was or how i was once seen by people is NOT who i am nor is it who i EVER will be again . People can change . I have changed . So why is it that I’m still tormented by who i was SO long ago ? Its not fair . I strive everyday to become a better person , to be there for people , to be respected by others , because respect is all i want from anyone . And, I try to find the best in people , i work my hardest to look past someone’s actions and dig for the good person in everyone , because the potential to be a good person is in all of us . So why cant I receive the same treatment i give to others ?
wow.
This experience has change me . My body feels funny . My mind is full of thoughts , but not confused . My heart is sad , but I know deep down I have made the correct choices . The one thing I feel I took from all this is … some mistakes can strongly be avoided , and this mistake is one i refuse to make again .
why…
Why me ? why do I always fail ? how can i go from having someone so in love with me one sec to him just leaving me like its nothing …i hate this so much . im dying and i dont know if you care . i think you care , but this decision you stand so strongly next to is killing me … why me ? this always happens . :’(
1 Month & 18 days ago. <3
My life changed.
My heart began to heal.
I found you .
With arms wide open, you welcomed me in . As our time together has proceeds, love overwhelms my once damaged heart . Every moment of everyday you are in my thoughts and dreams .
These feelings i have are real, there is NO question about that ! Baby you make my heart race, my body shake . I couldn’t ask for anything more !
Thank you babyy !
&&
I Love You Jordan Knight ! <3
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[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]This song means the WORLD to me ! <3
April 2010 !
This month started on a great yet awkward note. As time continues to proceed amazing things continue and continue to happen to me ! I have been shown love is not a pile of shit but rather it exists EVERYWHERE ! I have realized the five most important in my life are all here and continually by my side ! and though thats not ALL i need with time peace will come to all my past unfortunate misunderstanding . I still love those who turned away from me but she will soon come back to me :/ all you can do is have faith. in the famous word of Jordan Knight ! <3 and NOW April is coming to a rapid end and all i can feel is excitement for the months to come !! :D
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